After chemistry exam....

I dont wanna talk bout my exam,its a totally shit!Its quite hard,and my lecturer din teach us properly,she duno how to explain how to teach,she just noe how to read,from the slide for sure.i reali hate her!!!I just forget bout tat freaking stupid chemistry paper.i just wanna enjoy tonite..hehe..Its Devika birthday deh.^^

V having dinner at Lesung at dago atas,tat place damn pretty wit the viwe of bandung city.Its a romantic place,i will bring my bf here later..haha..If im lucky enough..hehe.The foods ther were nice,and cheap.strongly recommended to my frens..ehhe.unfortunately,the princess crown we bought for her ady broken.so sad and so bad.But nevermind,she is still my princess..ehhe..

Clubbing is the best part.We can dress up nicely,but caryn is the oni one who is seriously under-dress.haha.she wore a sleeveless top and skirt only.haha.I tot she said she dunwanna go at first,but she is the one who enjoyed it so much.With lots of dancing and lots of drinking.LOL.But last nite was techno nite,so without RnB music,so bad.But got a few handsome guys and gals who geser with guys.Pity her,but we cant do anythg,this is not our country.ehhe.We dun drunk and dun smoke.But,i hate the smokes there.better dont go again.hehe

Tats all....

XOXO tiantian

hapy 19th birthday to Devika!!!!!!

Yeah,so hapy and excited today cos its devika birthday!!!i Love her so much!!maucksss baby..hehe.i treat u like a princess la,just tat i like to bully u cos u r cute mah.u r my oni frens tat have ur own special characteristic,and u nvr bother even sumone hates it..gal,i will support u and love u forever k??hehe~~hapy birthday to u ooo..stop tinking bout the chemistry exam,u can do it well.


I love u!!!MUACKSSS!!!

Izit my fault?I dun understand!

Why?wat happen??

i dun understand.I did nothing wrong but then why u treat all of us like tat??expeacially me!!u said u wanna delete all my contact,my handphone no,my MSN and friendster account..wat happen??i dun understand.u refused to tell me,and u refused to tell julie and lee chin.Ya,now i noe is my problem but why??u dunwan to reply me.Why??im so confuse,just tell me la.i can understand.i apologize but u still keep me confusing.We used to be friends but why now we become like enemy?I feel bad when u dont talk to julie and lee chin because of me.If its my problem then just tell me and settle it.Why izit so difficult for you??

爱情的模样

你是巨大的海洋　
我是雨下在你身上
我失去了自己的形状
我看到远方　
爱情的模样
曾经孤单的旁徨　
曾经相信曾经失望
你穿过了重重的迷惘
那爱的慌张　
终于要解放
你是谁　
教我狂恋
教我勇敢地挑战全世界
在一样的身体里面　
一样有爱与被爱的感觉
我爱谁　
已无所谓
没有谁能将爱情划界限
在一样的身体里面　
迷样的魔力却是更强烈
星星在夜空中闪亮　
星空下我不停流浪
只剩我无知的奔忙
因为你眼光　
都化成了荒凉
这世界全部的漂亮
不过你的可爱模样　
你让我举双手投降
跨出了城墙　
长出了翅膀

Before chemistry exam...

I ponteng today,i am so tired and i feel lazy to go to campus.After raya i reali dont have time to rest.I get sick once,and now i wanna be strong and have great determination to study.I canot be like b4,lazy lazy and lazy.I did badly in STPM i cant blame others,its my own fault cos i din work as hard as i work now.i have to study hard.I wun regret i took STPM,cos now i feel very easy for me except physics,satria have to help me if not i will die.and chemistry!2ml is chemistry exam,and i dun have the confidence i can score in tat paper.haiz,Fida cant reali teach well,even our indon fren,Fendy mention tat too..she shuld change her teaching style,if we canot do well in the paper she should blame herself.

I still have 3 chapters to go and its a dead long chapters,and i hate those chapters too.Thermochem,free entropy change..so confusing the chapters.haiz..better start now.raining+studying is not a good combination.Raining+sleeping is the best combination..haha..



XOXO tiantian^^

Nothing special

This week physics and comp lab again..i HATE tat very much,duno why its not interesting at all.the lab assistants seldom speak in english,and i canot understand what they say in indon.What the hell??!!If they wanna upgrade their level they should learn english and use english communicate with international students.But lucky our assistant is gud and nice,his name is Michael and he been to malaysia many times before.He being very helpful thru all the experiment.If we get that bitch in caryn's group then i will be speechless.LOL.Tat lady reali racist,c'mon la.now already 2008 be modern la.If u duno anythg just shut up!!do u noe tat the whole international class hate U??Sedarlah!

I posted my blog and my frens leave comments to me,thanx guys.im quite hapy.I will be better soon.dont worry.hehe.

Miserable...

Sorry frenz,i feel sad and miserable 2day..again!dun scold me la..i reali meant it.hehe.Why i get sad?mayb cos of rainy day?or mayb cos of exam?or mayb bocs of my secret?hmmm,i duno.i tink most probably is rojak and campur-campur all the problems.Haiz,i reali duno la.U said i deserved better but why i still have to wait for sooo long?Why is me the one who need to wait?why??i dunt understand?why i just cant get wat i wan,and i will get it very soon??

i duno i duno i duno...i just wan2 forget everything...my head is very pain...just forget it!!

I need strength

I feel tired inside out,there is nothing which i can do to make me feel better.

Everyday i do the

same thing over and over again,without having a rest.

I crying loudly inside but no one can hear

me,i wanna break free from the cage which i usually stay inside but i couldn’t.

No one can understand my pain,i feel sad,miserable and depressed.

Smiling and laughing is the way i presented myself when i be with my friends.

I just don want them to worried bout me and think that im an emotional girl.

However,i cant hep it,i miss my family,i miss my friends and i miss the life that i have before.

Why i cannot look back?Why i cant be that girl that i used to be?Why i must suffer so much?

I feel pain inside,hundred of knife is cutting me slowly.

Im dying soon.

My heart cant effort so much of pressure inside.I

regret with lots of things which i done,i try to fix it but its useless.I don wanna regret anymore.

I feel sorry to all of you.I really meant it.

I just have simple wishes but why i cant reach it??

Izit destiny which separate us apart?I tried to find the answer but i couldn’t.

Oh God,please help me,I need Your strength to cope and deal with all these.God,please help me!

after exam!!!

I reali screwed up my physics exam,my whole brain is blank when i tried to do the question.satria still mention tat he felt bad and sorry since he din give us more challenging questions. What?i cant do all this “simple” question already. Sory,blame on me.I din prepare well before i sit for the exam.I just hope that i can pass,damn scare.I dun have faith on myself that i will pass. Mayb if Satria kind enough to give me marks then i will pass.

Yeah,after exam me and Julie went to shu wen’s place.Babakan Jeruk is the daerah’s name and Puri Chempernik is their kost name.Quite a nice name and their house is reali big like a banglo.But,unfortunately,shu wen’s room is smaller than ours.and its quite hot during the day,stuffy.however,the best part is she has her own toilet which i don’t have.Here is the most interesting part,the dinner is very very very tasty and mouth watering.we got PORK!!!!!its been ages i never eat pok,i miss Malaysia so much.Its like been years,decades,centuries ago i never taste pork meat.i took pork chop..hahaha.its so nice.its the only place i can get pork,but i wont have chace to eat pork in Dago.haiz,what a waste.

We went to BTC shops for devika’s birthday dress.haha~~i bought a blue denim dress,its kinda cute+sexy.i love it very much.ahha.while shu wen get a low,deep V black and white coloured dress.julie with her own style again.korean style..haha~~but she has a nice body to wear it.a heels will be great.hehe.

We play for two days without studying.Doom la,Monday got pharmacy some more.oh ya!forgot to mention somethg.the chef at Moshi Moshi is damn cute,but when his voice sucks when he sings..haha~~so when u all have time go to BTC Moshi Moshi..haha.@@


XOXO tian tian