Im whining

Freaking tired this weekend,weekend suppose to be relaxing and happy. But its the total opposite with what I wanted. Report la, assignment la, discussion la, lab journal la....this la that la..DOn;t know when only can finish. How to pass this semester also have no idea. Really WTH...This is one part of life that I hate the most.

Gotta go, wish me all the best and my friends too.I hope they can tahan this stress till the end of this semester. Peace

Pray hard

I seriously pray hard for it,for this time and for everything about this. Pray hard but will it be the result that I always want it to be? I know it will always not be the way that i want and i pray for. WHY? I don't even know,it just happen EVERYTIME. I guess this time it is real and it is really what i wanted for for so long.

Im really tired and exhausted after what I have been through with my ex,I think already spent too much of my time on him but things between us were just SUCKS!!! BIG TIME!!
I regret,regret that I know this person and have him as my boyfriend. Maybe y'all will say that im crazy and stupid that i never think before I couple up with him.But,ya,I never really think deeply and never take long time enough to get to know him. So,im regret. Let's not talk about that anymore,I don't give a damn shit bout him anymore.

I really pray hard....i pray and pray and pray...I really want this to happen.God,help me please. This is the only thing that i want it so badly now.PLEASE~~~~

STRESS

Im really stress out this time...I have a lot of works to be done, assignment, lab report, homework etc. Mid term exam is around the corner but I haven't study anything,it really gets into me this time. I really don't know how. The amount of work that i need to do is way way way heavier and alot thqan the previous semesters. I just feel like give up and go back to Malaysia,but i know i can't. "sigh"

Alot of works,but don't know where to start. Im tired and sleepy everyday,how am I suppose study? After finish all the works already late. I memang tak tau la...How to survive in ITB for 1 sem and 2 more years? "sigh"

Signing off. Good nite...

All about me

Another 2 days then it will be March,time really pass by very fast without noticing. I haven't do any study except before quiz or discussion. Im not as smart as the others,and im lazy.This is me! XD Sometimes I wish that i can have a brain of smart people,i don't need to be very smart.Just enough to let me pass my exam without alots of study..Ya,i know.It won't happen.

I realised that there is this rude person around me,he/she can just scold to anyone without consider of their feelings. Its not a big issue,but he/she want to make it BIG!!! Swearing around,using the F word and the B word.Never respect his/her friends. What kind of person is this?I don't even want to have anything to do with this particular person.><

Anyway,life is too short to HATE somone. I won't let this kinda people or some small things to bring me down. I want to live my life to the fullest and be HAPPY everyday. I can tell to my parent that im really really happy recently. I don't need a reason to be happy,i just want to appreciate everything that i have and stop complaining about what I don't have. I guess that everyone must be a grown up in their own way.

Im still confuse, but i will just go with the flow.It will just be something different this time.^^

Peace~~

Dont wanna come back

I seriously don't feel like coming back...'sigh'
I feel somehow miserable and moody,same old schedule,NO! is more hectic. Same daily routine,lab,report,exams....and the list goes on.

Time passed very fast,one week just finished in a blink of eye.I miss him when i was back in Malaysia,maybe I have met the right person at the right time but nationality is our biggest problem,not the right place.I don't want to give up as a Malaysian.

Got to know that I have tons of homework to do..Fiuh.>< All the best to me.All the best to my friends too.

~Signing off~

fine fine

I thought I will be emo,sad or whatever SHIT when I saw those 'stuff'.But,i guess I was wrong then....Im totally FINE!! Im so glad that Im fine^^

人生因为改变而美丽

我认为我已经知道我最大的缺点了,
就是想太多和太过于执著..

应该是很早就知道了吧!
喜欢往坏的方面去想, 想东想西.
执着一样明知道是没有结果的东西, 或是不可能发生的东西.

觉得应该改变一下, 不应该太多愁善感.

曾听过: 人生因为改变而美丽
很有意思….

SWEET

Ya,I can say that it's been a very long time since I feel like this.
It is just different,really different from the previous time.

It was just SWEET!

Big a** prob

Fiuh..this post is not meant to be an emo post.But just can't help myself.Haha...

I think alot when I come back,emo alot.Jeez,i don't know why.Maybe i got this gene from my mom that worried and think too much.LOL.
What should I do? I know,I know,not worth it...Blah blah blah...Sigh

Why it is so hard for me to don't think and to be not 执著？

Big major problem here...must get rid of it in no time!!

Feeling changed

In less than 24 hours then I will be back to my lovey dovey home..Hehe
It is really time for me to get my Ass back home.

I still remember the last time I went back home,the feeling changed.Im excited but not over the same thing again.Time seriously heal,Im way better now. I left my feelings behind in 2009.

There is no more turning back. There is always first and second time,but disappointment and betrayal destroyed everything,Yeah,everything.

Signing off.Bye bye Bandung,at least for now^^

Summary

It's been awhile since I log in my blog,

Busy?Yeap,as usual..Exams,outing,being lazy,and crappy stuff.
Duh,the worst part is my Baby Laptop spoilt.Damn! I can't do anything with it,I won't even dare to take it to local service center,and they don't even have an Asus service center here for crying out loud..><

Rainy season started around mid December,it rains non stop starts from afternoon till the night time.Freaking cold, I really have no idea how i gonna survive when I go back to Malaysia,as I heard,its 'summer' in Malaysia.Arhggg...I just hope that my body can resist the heat and don't spoils my holiday mood.

I went to Cinangneng at Bogor during the 10 days break,and it was really fun and i experienced Kampung life. Haha...Expecially the mandi kerbau part.Want to upload my trip photos up to Facebook but my Baby cant help me with that,guess just gonna wait.Damn it!

I was up until now using Vicky's laptop,sleepy but I don't care.One more day and i will be back.My mum will certainly nag me if I sleep after 12am.22 this year but for her Im still a 1 year old girl.LOL.

Finished my 3rd sem,hmmm...This sem ends in a blink of eyes,I have my ups and downs. But just feel thankful that Im still here now. Just gonna enjoy my holiday.

What meant to be happen will come to you...So this time I not gonna rush,just let it go with a flow.

Good nite.

Signing off...XD

Truth...crossroad

It's kinda sad to know the truth huh?

But still don't know what is the truth..

Left or right? Up or down?

Forward or backward?

Continue or stop?

Let the time tells bah...

眼泪笑了

我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重
谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候
我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的
心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手 本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢
谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候
我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
(是美的)
你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候 我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你
深深的

I like this song..nice nice nice...but SAD :(

Duh...

HOT~~~

SLEEPY~~

BORING~~

HOMESICK~~

I guess everything will be alright,

I think everything will be fine,

I think MAYBE this way is better^^

HOT~~

GOING TO BATH~~

WTF

What the hell is gong on with me today?? I couldn't wake up early in the morning, i haven't started my revision for Microbiology and Organic lab test. Oh My God!!!! Today just not that into me,i guess. I totally screwed up my paper for Microbiology. WTF!!!!

Now im stuck in half way doing my Organic lab report...jeezzz...what a f-king day.Seriously,im not that OK today. Had a bad dream last night,grrrr...a**holes and jacka** appeared in my dream. HELL YEAH!! AGAIN!!At least give me some prediction on the questions that going to come out today.WTH!!

It started out kinda bad,i hope it will end it well tonight...>< Tomorrow exam again!!!!! I just want to get out of this,all this stuff that bother me!!

reali
*&%#%^*(%#@#^

与妈妈的对话

原来妈妈什么都知道, 看来身为女儿的我, 要瞒着她也不是件很容易的事.

刚才妈妈打电话给我, 谈来谈去就说到了我的问题. 很奇怪她并没有骂我, 只是一直在跟我分析和安慰罢了. 突然感觉到妈妈已经不再当我是小孩子了, 不会再骂我了. 虽然我知道在这件事我的确是做了个错误的选择. 她说她当初要阻止我可是她又怕我怪她, 所以想说的话还是留在心里了. 我是明白她的苦心, 只是当初还是不听劝告.

后悔? 不后悔啦.. 是我的选择嘛…

她说: 感情事不可以拖泥带水, 要直接了当, 不可以见异思迁, 不可以捉摸不定. 有些人的背景, 我们完全不知道, 或许你是用最真诚的心对待他, 可是在这种复杂, 人心难测的社会里, 还是要真正的看清楚才做决定. 我觉得你那次做了个太快的决定, 你根本还看不清楚. 其实我的第六感告诉我已经有
我说: 其实你说的我都懂, 只是一时糊涂做了太快的决定. 要怪就怪我当初不听朋友的劝告. 不听你说. 很多东西发生了我没有告诉你和爸爸因为不要你们担心, 现在我好多了. 伤心归伤心可是生活还是要过, 还要读书, 还要考试啊. 所以你们就不要==太担心我了啦…我很好,没什么. 要成长过程中难免会遇到这些问题的, 我自己也应该学着如何去面对, 而不是一直靠你们啊.

其实, 听妈妈的话是没有错的. 父母说的话其实是没有错的, 越来越大了, 才会了解他们的苦心.

Whatever title la....

What a boring boring day you know?Classes finished already,stay at home doing nothing.Lazy to go out as in the weather HOT until I beh tahan.>< Yala,what also I cannot tahan mia.LOL.

Cannot believe that sem 3 already come to and end,LOL.Did I learnt anything this sem??Hmmm...let me think.Been through the 'Form 5' situation again,become more lazy...and what else??'wink' Oh ya,I know!! Learnt some new dishes from Chin and Tzu@@ Yeap,thats right.

Classes finished dy have more time to cook,eat,sleep...eat and sleep...Gosh!! put on more weight already lah...Geez,better put on more,when i go back to Malaysia,the hot freaking weather will burn off all my 'lemak'....XD

Anyway,now is the time to cook again!!! Ping pong piang~~~~

就这样吧!

要怎么开始我想说的东西呢? 我也不知道, 就知道想写些什么.

又要在blog这里骂人吗? 很没有力气骂了. 要再埋怨吗? 我的生活已经很完美了, 为什么还要怨三嫌四呢?

这几天没有再花时间在想着同样的事情, 跟朋友聊起也不会再觉得隐隐做痛了, 晚上也能一觉到天明, 也不会再发呆.

很多东西是需要很大的勇气才做得到, 拿得起固然要放得下. 我很勇敢的拿了起来, 放下的时候百般的不舍, 可是还是做个这个决定.

嗯…..只是认为已经没感觉了, 不会痛, 不会哭, 不会生气, 不会关心…什么都不会了. 已经不需要了. 看到的, 听到的…也无所谓了..

我,

曾经付出过, 曾经爱过, 曾经快乐过, 曾经学习过, 曾经珍惜过……

我们还有曾经, 虽然不是什么天长地久, 可是…..我已经拥有过了. 那为什么我还要再埋怨呢? 为什么我还要觉得生气呢? 这一切已经不重要了. 不再在乎别人怎么说, 别人怎么想了.

生命苦短, 我只想珍惜身边的一切, 我不会再认为所有事情的发生都是不公平都是别人的错. 我只想一切就这样子, 就这样吧!

我不恨了, 也不介意了, 也不伤心了. 一切就让它随着时间过去…….

祝福你快乐, 幸福和健康.

:)

^^

Time passed,

I will be better in time,

Evn im still doubt of myself,

but what i did is correct,

at least it was good for me...^^

cheers!!

good post frm her...

人生中有太多的选择，

我们从还不懂事的时候就已经被逼做出选择。

当我们还小时，我们需要选，到底我的娃娃比较美丽还是姐姐的？

当我们长大一些，我们要选，小明整天和我吵架，到底还要不要跟他做朋友？

当我们上小学，我们还得选，小丽那班人叫我不要跟小花好，我到底该跟谁好？

上我们上中学，我们得选，该选理科好呢？还是文科？

选了理科文科，以为可以安安心心不用在两年内做什么大的选择时，

我们却要选，选帅帅的A君做男朋友好呢？还是成绩一列前茅的B君？

很快的，又是选大学的时候了。

本地大学好，还是外国大学？

应该读医生还是律师？

应该留下来读中六还是去学院？

当你作了你认为是人生中最大的决定时，

你却发现，上了大学，你要做的决定更多。

应该和那个很帅的C君一起，还是那个有钱的D君好呢？还是应该和前度复合？

应该买这个牌子的鞋子好呢还是另一个的？

应该这个那个还是那样这样？

这时我们开始怨了，

为什么当初我那么冲动买了这个，回到家后却不喜欢了。

为什么当初我会选那个男生，对，他是帅，可是他很花心，见一个爱一个，

为什么当时我不听大家的劝告而选择了过这样的生活？

为什么当时那么愚昧，被他三言两语就答应把第一次交给他？

过后，我们开始想了很多的‘如果’，

如果我当时没有选这科，那我就不用那么辛苦了。

如果我那时没有买那个，我就够钱买这个了。

如果之前不是选择他而是另一个他，我就可以很幸福了。

如果那天没有和他发生关系，我就可以轻易放下他了。

从选择，抱怨，后悔，然后再选择，抱怨，后悔 ...

这样的生活，大家应该都很熟悉吧？

既然如此，那为什么我们就是不肯选择走出这个圈子，

做出另一个选择呢？

* 我要做下一个选择了。

Taken from a fren's blog...meaningful^^